This Year: 365 Songs Annotated: A Book of Days, by John Darnielle
Apr. 15th, 2026 07:47 amThe lyrics to 365 songs written by John "The Mountain Goats" Darnielle, including some that are unreleased, accompanied by musings on their poetics, musicality, and personal meaning. Darnielle is a thoughtful, funny, devout man who has lived a lot of different lives, and while he resists making this a memoir, it is, though you just as often see him decline to explain the personal significance of a song. I respect his honesty, and his self-reflection, and even his coyness. If he were a character in a book, I'd say he had interiority, which isn't something you can say about everyone who's written a memoir.
I really enjoyed this, even as it's basically just really, really thick liner notes. The book gave me a new appreciation for my favorite songs and even introduced me to some new ones. I bought "Horseradish Road" after reading the lyrics and listening to it on YouTube; I learned he had an album that came out in 2022 that I'd never heard of—probably because we had some other stuff going on at the time—and which I will be buying soon, and in the four months it took me to read this, I've been listening to the albums I already knew I enjoyed (Transcendental Youth, All Eternals Deck, We Shall All Be Healed) and those I never quite clicked with (Beat the Champ, Get Lonely). I did not listen to Goths, Jenny From Thebes, Dark in Here, Getting Into Knives, In League With Dragons, All Hail West Texas, or Ghana, but there's still time. And I don't need an excuse to listen to Tallahassee, The Sunset Tree, The Life of the World to Come, or Heretic Pride, as they are my absolute favorites and I'm listening to them all the time anyway. Also do not sleep on the Babylon Springs EP.
If you're a The Mountain Goats fan, or a fan of Darnielle's social media presence, and/or a poet, songwriter, or storyteller, there's plenty to think about here. Darnielle shares what he finds interesting as an artist, the phases and trends he's gone through in his career, and the echoes he finds in his work. He recommends reading one entry a day, thus the format, but I had to read several a day because this was a library book, and huge, but it definitely benefits from being read in small bites, like poetry, so you can sit with it a while.
Contains (in part): references to child abuse, drug use, addiction, overdose, suicide. The ebook duplicates the print book's index, but does not bother to link any of the song titles to their entries, which is bullshit.
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I really enjoyed this, even as it's basically just really, really thick liner notes. The book gave me a new appreciation for my favorite songs and even introduced me to some new ones. I bought "Horseradish Road" after reading the lyrics and listening to it on YouTube; I learned he had an album that came out in 2022 that I'd never heard of—probably because we had some other stuff going on at the time—and which I will be buying soon, and in the four months it took me to read this, I've been listening to the albums I already knew I enjoyed (Transcendental Youth, All Eternals Deck, We Shall All Be Healed) and those I never quite clicked with (Beat the Champ, Get Lonely). I did not listen to Goths, Jenny From Thebes, Dark in Here, Getting Into Knives, In League With Dragons, All Hail West Texas, or Ghana, but there's still time. And I don't need an excuse to listen to Tallahassee, The Sunset Tree, The Life of the World to Come, or Heretic Pride, as they are my absolute favorites and I'm listening to them all the time anyway. Also do not sleep on the Babylon Springs EP.
If you're a The Mountain Goats fan, or a fan of Darnielle's social media presence, and/or a poet, songwriter, or storyteller, there's plenty to think about here. Darnielle shares what he finds interesting as an artist, the phases and trends he's gone through in his career, and the echoes he finds in his work. He recommends reading one entry a day, thus the format, but I had to read several a day because this was a library book, and huge, but it definitely benefits from being read in small bites, like poetry, so you can sit with it a while.
Contains (in part): references to child abuse, drug use, addiction, overdose, suicide. The ebook duplicates the print book's index, but does not bother to link any of the song titles to their entries, which is bullshit.
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Riches
Apr. 13th, 2026 03:09 pmSo I'm into hockey fics now, and just realised there's a treasure trove of Helenish hockey rpf to be read. HR has taught me the basics of the hockey world, which makes the rpf easier to get into even if I don't really know the players. And I'll follow Helenish pretty much everywhere.
Two recs for now, Leon Draisaitl/Connor McDavid. Both locked to AO3.
Obligations. A long, slow burn story in an alpha/beta/omega-verse, and Helenish's worldbuilding within that is extraordinary, just as good as the way 'Take Clothes Off As Directed' deepened BDSM-verse. They're teammates on the Oilers, interacting with a mass of assumptions, miscommunication, hopeless denial, and obliviousness, so most of the fic is pining and unspoken longing badly hidden behind defences. They get there in the end, despite knowing how bad it'll be with the Press and twitter and their coaches and agents (the reactions of others plus their own idiocy replace RL homophobia as barriers), and there's finally some gorgeous hot as hell sex to enjoy after being edged for the rest of the story. It's from Leon's pov, and ends with a quiet paean to the hockey life. (17,681)
Silver Lining Playbook. Connor's pov, set at and after the recent Olympics. Non-linear plot, starting with them hooking up angrily and fake-casually, and only later we learn they used to be together then broke up due to the usual miscommunication and stubbornness. The ending's hopeful rather than resolved, and Connor's characterisation is excellent. Where the fic above was all repressed feelings and eventual fucking, this one's all fucking until eventually they talk about feelings. Very nice. (7212)
Two recs for now, Leon Draisaitl/Connor McDavid. Both locked to AO3.
Obligations. A long, slow burn story in an alpha/beta/omega-verse, and Helenish's worldbuilding within that is extraordinary, just as good as the way 'Take Clothes Off As Directed' deepened BDSM-verse. They're teammates on the Oilers, interacting with a mass of assumptions, miscommunication, hopeless denial, and obliviousness, so most of the fic is pining and unspoken longing badly hidden behind defences. They get there in the end, despite knowing how bad it'll be with the Press and twitter and their coaches and agents (the reactions of others plus their own idiocy replace RL homophobia as barriers), and there's finally some gorgeous hot as hell sex to enjoy after being edged for the rest of the story. It's from Leon's pov, and ends with a quiet paean to the hockey life. (17,681)
Silver Lining Playbook. Connor's pov, set at and after the recent Olympics. Non-linear plot, starting with them hooking up angrily and fake-casually, and only later we learn they used to be together then broke up due to the usual miscommunication and stubbornness. The ending's hopeful rather than resolved, and Connor's characterisation is excellent. Where the fic above was all repressed feelings and eventual fucking, this one's all fucking until eventually they talk about feelings. Very nice. (7212)
HR vid rec - To be a princess
Apr. 13th, 2026 01:54 amOk I lied about going to bed.
Hilarious vid “To Be A Princess” -
set to some musical song, possibly Disney? By theburialofstrawberries.
https://www.tumblr.com/mific/813728132898177024/shane-as-princess
Hilarious vid “To Be A Princess” -
set to some musical song, possibly Disney? By theburialofstrawberries.
https://www.tumblr.com/mific/813728132898177024/shane-as-princess
Damp squib
Apr. 12th, 2026 11:29 pmAs often happens, after all the dramatic warnings cyclone Vaianu was only a period of heavy rain and moderate winds where I live. Just another Sunday. More flooding elsewhere, but not too bad. Oh well, at least I got my camping gear out ready for any future power cuts. off to bed with me now, night all!
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Apr. 11th, 2026 05:32 pmSeen at
justcreate. I thought these were cool questions so I'm repeating them here.
What are you working on? What have you finished? What do you need encouragement on?
Are there any cool events or challenges happening that you want to hype?
What do you just want to talk about?
What have you been watching or reading?
Chores and other not-fun things count?
(I'm tossing my own answers in a comment to this)
What are you working on? What have you finished? What do you need encouragement on?
Are there any cool events or challenges happening that you want to hype?
What do you just want to talk about?
What have you been watching or reading?
Chores and other not-fun things count?
(I'm tossing my own answers in a comment to this)
Dear Fandom5k Creator
Apr. 11th, 2026 09:49 pmDear
fandom5k writer,
thank you so much for writing a story for me! I've requested and received all of these fandoms before - some for many, many years, and often with the same prompts, because when I really enjoy something, I immediately want fifty more takes on the same thing. *g* So if that's what we matched on, don't worry about repeating things! I'll be absolutely thrilled about anything you can create about the relationships I requested.
Everything important is in the requests themselves, but if you'd like even more info, general likes etc., here you go.
My AO3 account is
Trobadora, and it's set to welcome treats.
General Preferences
( Likes & Dislikes/DNWs )
Fandoms and relationships
In somewhat alphabetical order - note that some sections are expanded compared to the sign-up form:
Jump directly to:
( 镇魂 | Guardian (TV): Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan, Ya Qing/Zhu Hong, Shen Wei & Ya Qing )
( Grimm/Guardian crossovers: Nick Burkhardt & Sean Renard & Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan, Sean Renard & Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan, Juliette Silverton & Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan, Juliette Silverton & Shen Wei, Sean Renard & Shen Wei, Sean Renard & Ya Qing, Sean Renard/Ya Qing )
( Nantucket Trilogy - S.M. Stirling: Kashtiliash & Raupasha )
( Sherlock (BBC): Jim Moriarty/Sherlock Holmes )
( 山河令 | Word of Honor: Wen Kexing/Zhou Zishu )
thank you so much for writing a story for me! I've requested and received all of these fandoms before - some for many, many years, and often with the same prompts, because when I really enjoy something, I immediately want fifty more takes on the same thing. *g* So if that's what we matched on, don't worry about repeating things! I'll be absolutely thrilled about anything you can create about the relationships I requested.
Everything important is in the requests themselves, but if you'd like even more info, general likes etc., here you go.
My AO3 account is
General Preferences
( Likes & Dislikes/DNWs )
Fandoms and relationships
In somewhat alphabetical order - note that some sections are expanded compared to the sign-up form:
Jump directly to:
- Grimm: Nick/Renard/Juliette
- 镇魂 | Guardian (TV): Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan, Ya Qing/Zhu Hong, Shen Wei & Ya Qing
- Grimm/镇魂 | Guardian (TV) crossovers: Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan & Sean Renard & Nick Burkhardt, Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan & Sean Renard, Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan & Juliette Silverton, Shen Wei & Sean Renard, Shen Wei & Juliette Silverton, Sean Renard & Ya Qing, Sean Renard/Ya Qing
- Nantucket Trilogy - S.M. Stirling: Kashtiliash & Raupasha
- Sherlock (BBC): Sherlock/Moriarty
- 山河令 | Word of Honor: Wen Kexing/Zhou Zishu
( 镇魂 | Guardian (TV): Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan, Ya Qing/Zhu Hong, Shen Wei & Ya Qing )
( Grimm/Guardian crossovers: Nick Burkhardt & Sean Renard & Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan, Sean Renard & Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan, Juliette Silverton & Shen Wei & Zhao Yunlan, Juliette Silverton & Shen Wei, Sean Renard & Shen Wei, Sean Renard & Ya Qing, Sean Renard/Ya Qing )
( Nantucket Trilogy - S.M. Stirling: Kashtiliash & Raupasha )
( Sherlock (BBC): Jim Moriarty/Sherlock Holmes )
( 山河令 | Word of Honor: Wen Kexing/Zhou Zishu )
The Friday Five for 10 April 2026
Apr. 11th, 2026 07:41 pmThis week's questions at
thefridayfive
1. What was the last book you read (or are currently reading)?
Just finished reading Raskaat varjot (orig. Den siste pilegrimen) by Gard Sweeen on Thursday. Started the next in the series Pimeän sylissä (orig. Helvete åpent) the same day.
I'm also reading: Until It' Overer and The Favour, both by Nicci French, Salainen koodi by Denise Rudberg, Children of Time by Adrian Tcsaikovsy, and The Nazi Mind by Laurence Rees.
2. What was the last movie you watched?
The Nice Guys yesterday. First movie in months. I don't really watch movies anymore.
3. What television series are you currently watching?
So many, but I'm most into For All Mankind, The Pitt and The Capture.
4. What are some of your favorite blogs or communities online?
Don't have one, they're all gone dead now.
5. What social media do you belong to and check often?
Facerbook, Dreamwidth, Pillowfort, Tumbl. I don't post much and check once a day.
1. What was the last book you read (or are currently reading)?
Just finished reading Raskaat varjot (orig. Den siste pilegrimen) by Gard Sweeen on Thursday. Started the next in the series Pimeän sylissä (orig. Helvete åpent) the same day.
I'm also reading: Until It' Overer and The Favour, both by Nicci French, Salainen koodi by Denise Rudberg, Children of Time by Adrian Tcsaikovsy, and The Nazi Mind by Laurence Rees.
2. What was the last movie you watched?
The Nice Guys yesterday. First movie in months. I don't really watch movies anymore.
3. What television series are you currently watching?
So many, but I'm most into For All Mankind, The Pitt and The Capture.
4. What are some of your favorite blogs or communities online?
Don't have one, they're all gone dead now.
5. What social media do you belong to and check often?
Facerbook, Dreamwidth, Pillowfort, Tumbl. I don't post much and check once a day.
I am alerted!
Apr. 11th, 2026 02:28 pmMinor update to yesterday's post.
One of those scary buzzy alerts on my phone just now, for the cyclone later today and tomorrow. No change from yesterday, just grumbling that I hate how those alerts startle me and raise my anxiety. Which is the point, I know! The eerie calm has broken - a light wind now and I just looked up and saw sun on the garden, but a sky becoming dark and lowering beyond. Peak cyclone time is the small hours of Sunday morning. Guess I'd better go outside and see what needs tidying away, then find the camping gas box in the garage. I'm very lucky that's all I need to do.
One of those scary buzzy alerts on my phone just now, for the cyclone later today and tomorrow. No change from yesterday, just grumbling that I hate how those alerts startle me and raise my anxiety. Which is the point, I know! The eerie calm has broken - a light wind now and I just looked up and saw sun on the garden, but a sky becoming dark and lowering beyond. Peak cyclone time is the small hours of Sunday morning. Guess I'd better go outside and see what needs tidying away, then find the camping gas box in the garage. I'm very lucky that's all I need to do.
life
Apr. 10th, 2026 05:32 pmFinally, I'm on the upswing of a wicked head cold. Naps helped. Lots of naps.
I'm digging into my Fandom Trumps Hate fic. I hope my bidder likes it. In any event it's keeping my brain occupied and keeping me out of trouble.
I came across this article 7 tiny hacks that can improve your to do list and it reminded me that years ago I made a to do list every morning.
It's been awhile since I did that. Life's a little simpler now that I'm retired and my kids are grown with families of their own. I gotta say, it did help.
How 'bout you? Are To do lists a part of your day?
I'm going to admit right now, my list were far too ambitious and I did well if I could finish one half of the tasks.
I'm digging into my Fandom Trumps Hate fic. I hope my bidder likes it. In any event it's keeping my brain occupied and keeping me out of trouble.
I came across this article 7 tiny hacks that can improve your to do list and it reminded me that years ago I made a to do list every morning.
It's been awhile since I did that. Life's a little simpler now that I'm retired and my kids are grown with families of their own. I gotta say, it did help.
How 'bout you? Are To do lists a part of your day?
I'm going to admit right now, my list were far too ambitious and I did well if I could finish one half of the tasks.
Fannish 50 2026 #15: different attitudes
Apr. 10th, 2026 11:21 amI'm watching a show where a man in a position of some authority blames a man with greater power for the death of his son. He kidnaps the guy and takes him out to the middle of the desert, leaving him to die. He is emotionally upset by what he has done, but feels it was necessary. His wife is distraught when she founds out, upset that her husband has done this horrible act, despoiling the memory of their son with murder, not even sharing his burden with her.
And it makes me think of this other show where a man in a position of some authority blames a man with greater power for the death of his son. And he schemes with mercenaries on a plan that kills a significant number of people and is intended to kill thousands more, but gets prevented. He doesn't seem to be particularly traumatized by what he has done, but fairly self-righteous about being driven to it. His wife is not distraught when she finds out. She is in fact delighted that her husband has killed a bunch of people to find vengeance for their son's death and encourages him on.
Do I even need to say which couple is Native American and which is white?
And now that I've set that up, I'm not sure where I want to go with it. Multiple paths pull me. But mainly it's been interesting to think about, how very culturally different people can be, and how my own cultural background has helped create my reactions of what is wrong and right and what people 'ought' to do. Also, it is good to watch different types of media.
And it makes me think of this other show where a man in a position of some authority blames a man with greater power for the death of his son. And he schemes with mercenaries on a plan that kills a significant number of people and is intended to kill thousands more, but gets prevented. He doesn't seem to be particularly traumatized by what he has done, but fairly self-righteous about being driven to it. His wife is not distraught when she finds out. She is in fact delighted that her husband has killed a bunch of people to find vengeance for their son's death and encourages him on.
Do I even need to say which couple is Native American and which is white?
And now that I've set that up, I'm not sure where I want to go with it. Multiple paths pull me. But mainly it's been interesting to think about, how very culturally different people can be, and how my own cultural background has helped create my reactions of what is wrong and right and what people 'ought' to do. Also, it is good to watch different types of media.
Autumn garden views, and cyclone prep
Apr. 10th, 2026 03:48 pmI haven't posted garden pics for a while due to autumn untidyness - so far as Auckland has an autumn, which is not very. Still green, just cooler and wetter. Also, I've been busy enjoying and making fanworks and have neglected the garden as it slides inexorably into disrepair. But everything's still green, and I do enjoy looking out at it so I thought you might like some views from my windows and doors. Overcast today so not ideal photography conditions, but as Cyclone Vaianu is bearing down on us in 36 hrs I figured I'd get pics now in case it's chaos by Monday. First time my landlord's property manager has ever emailed tenants with a cyclone warning and info about how to batten down! If I was still in my leaky house in the bush I'd be very worried but this flat's in a safe place - solid construction, high ground but not exposed, no big unsafe trees nearby - so fingers crossed. I'll roust out my camping gas stove and lamp in case of power cuts, and we'll see. Hope you're all safe from extreme weather events!
( pics here... )
( pics here... )
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Apr. 7th, 2026 07:26 pmomg I swear this is what did it. My life has changed over the past week, I feel like a new person, and I feel crazy about it because I swear it's because I splurged on a new soft throw blanket. Something about touching that blanket healed me, y'all. It's a UGG Euphoria blanket, and I spent like 60 bucks on it. I didn't really have the money but I splurged anyway, and it is SO SOFT, and it does something to my brain. Like it tickles my brain when I rub my hands on it. This needs to be studied.
I doubt new improved me will last forever, but I'm doing what I can while I'm feeling this way.
Believe me, I know how crazy it sounds that a blanket has 'cured' my depression.
I doubt new improved me will last forever, but I'm doing what I can while I'm feeling this way.
Believe me, I know how crazy it sounds that a blanket has 'cured' my depression.
Wrote another fic
Apr. 6th, 2026 01:14 pmSome mildy porny, romantic fun, in which Shane gets tattooed for Ilya. There's even an Easter mention!
Words To Live By (Explicit, ~3600 words)
I should of course be writing my Hollanov Big Bang fic, but no, this one happened.
Happy hot cross buns to everyone.
Words To Live By (Explicit, ~3600 words)
I should of course be writing my Hollanov Big Bang fic, but no, this one happened.
Happy hot cross buns to everyone.